why it is not painful this do with me you know your always hurt me why you dont think when were start and after you get my all mine. now you ask me that is fault of our god. i know this relation so big big faulf of our god. so that every night i always pray for god that forgive our sin. i know that my parents and my children's need's me. and also you your family needs you specially your wife. why you dont ask to me directly that you dont like me and you never love me? so that you dont have so mini reason that ask to me.it must be good for me and i must be accept. that is your decision what can i do to accept who is me to force you to love me I'm just only woman that i stuped to love you and early trust you. why i love you if i know that you hurt me. you know my brain is to exhaushon to think even my work i cannot cor centrate i always mistake ,you know I'm like the things that after you use you through at the garbages, may be i know that your guilty that you make lier to your wife. now i need to force my self to forgot you and to forgot what happened with you and me. your such a lier you'll never do you promises to me that you'll never hurt me.sorry to say this dont blame me to getting argry with you because you hurt me so much deep inside my heart. thank you for your lying with me i never forgot this all of my life! your such a lier!!! and thank's for your fake loving me!!! you nothing can do, because for me its to hard again that i believe you you hurt me to much. and i well not force you to love me. its you what is your truely decided i respect but dont blame me if i angry with you because this is not easy for me to accept for what happen we both. even me its my fault because to love you and i trust you evry early. i cannot think for what happened after all this. why you dont answer me i ask you a question if sometimes you love me? just i what to know only if yes or not!why you dont answer me! for what if we continue this relation if your not happy for me just like only lies each other. i well not force you to love me if you dont like me i respect. just i only thank's for your fake loving me even a few day's only. and you dont force your self to love me. i just only move on. i think someday well come that i accept what happened we both.its true that you feel painful? or just you ask only. god is always there to help who's needs a halp .your always remined! now i have no reason to leave in singapore for so long. two years is enough fo me you read all your letter for me so that you know how could you lies me.so so so good to lies! i wish you happy!